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The Stuff Dorktaped Does

Why is this blog named ‘dorktaped does stuff?’ Well, I, dorktaped, do a lot of stuff. In fact, I have a problem with that. I have a lot, and I mean literally over a hundred, unfinished projects/goals. Yeah, it’s insane. And I can’t even figure out how I got here. There’s some shitty personality trait that just keeps pushing me to do new things before finishing whatever I’m working on. This blog is one of them. I started this because I thought it would be a nice way to build up my website skillz and what-have-you but here I am almost a month later and I have one post up. It’s the exact same goddamn thing that always happens. I just don’t have the drive to finish anything. It’s almost like I have this fear of finishing things. Even with video games, when I think I’m getting near the end I just shrug it off and go do something else. I have this mindset that ‘oh it won’t take that long to finish’ which 9 times out of 10 is not the case. Let’s look at some of the projects I have available to me: Jewelry stand. Started in 2015 or thereabouts. I even have all of the fabric to line the drawers and stuff. Just a matter of cutting and gluing. Writing. There are probably 7 manuscripts sitting on the bookshelf behind me that if I had the patience to edit and revise I could throw on Amazon Publishing and maybe make a tiny bit of money. Seriously, the first drafts are all done. I even have a trilogy done! What the hell, DT? Get your shit together. This doesn’t even touch on the ideas and short stories I have floating around that could turn into stand-alone novels. Games. So so so so so many video games. I mentioned this above but I have games where I’m even close to the end (Earthbound, I’m looking at you) but I just can’t convince myself to pick them up and finish them. I’ve had good luck with to-play lists in the past so I’ll probably end up making one of those and maybe even posting it. Finishing this website. It doesn’t look how I want it. There aren’t enough blog posts. I want to update it regularly too but so far that hasn’t been happening either. That’s this year’s Camp NaNo goal. At least one blog post every other day. No one ever sees this anyway so they don’t have to be stellar. It’s my damn website anyway so whatever. Art stuff. This is actually what brought this whole thing to the front of my mind. I bought a Wacom tablet because I wanted it. I thought I would use it. And I want to. I really really do. But what the fuck am I going to do with it? I had fun messing around with it the day I got it but will it really be all that useful for me down the road? Why did I have that impulse in the first place? Sewing. Yep, I have a sewing machine and a serger sitting on a table in my bedroom that I haven’t touched in months. I get all of these hairbrained ideas (see Wacom tablet) and then nothing becomes of it. Moral of the story: I have no focus. I also lack dedication and drive to complete any one of the above. So what am I going to do about this? Short answer: write shit down and hope for the best. Long answer: Probably cry. A lot. That seems to be a thing lately. But really, I have a traveler’s notebook that I’m using for work. I have a planner for home (the one I write my blog posts in) and I think between the two of those I should be able to handle what the world has to throw at me. But that’s highly optimistic at best. So in light of my life being semi-stable now for the foreseeable future I think I can plan this a bit better. Let’s break out a calendar. Each week should have a different ‘theme,’ those being things like sewing, writing, art stuff. Gaming can be done on weekends. That seems fair I think. Will this work? Oh probably not. Gwen and I are going to the dog park three nights a week, I have dinner with my family twice a week, and traffic has been getting progressively worse over the last year. What used to take me about 45 minutes is now taking an hour or more. That being said, dedicating an hour three days a week to something, plus writing blog posts each week, plus looking after this cute little dog, it’s not easy. I’m lazy. I’ll be the first to admit it. I’m probably the laziest person I know. I just feel like I have to be achieving and doing all of the time. It’s just who I am. All or nothing.   I need to write goals each week. For example, if this week were sewing, then my goal is to complete one shirt out of my vintage casual pattern book. I don’t know. I’m working on it. I’ll figure this out then post pictures of my planner when I do.